oneblessedpiggy

Today is my last full day in Fontana; tomorrow i will wake up here for the last time and it will be the first time i have that feeling... i wonder what that will feel like.

I wonder what it will be like to get to san fran and step into my apartment for the first time... insanity.


oh well it has to happen and once i get adjusted i'm sure the excitement of it all will come rushing back :)

"today is the first day... of the rest of your days...."

:( i dont feel happy. uhhhh. stupid esssssssssay. be over with already. i'll get through this though. i must.

on a side note. sarah kelsey and i all got into uc santa cruz. wowzers this is exciting :D

:)


to say the least i am soooo blessed. i just wanted to ramble on a bit about the news i received most recently :D

so... once again God has smiled down upon me. i cant believe that i am in the running for the gates. even though i have told alot of people i dont feel that that would be a big issue if i dont get it. :D i mean if i dont i know that at least they reviewed my application and thought i qualified... so what comes next is the deciding factor and well to be completely truthful... you know i want it. haha.

any who i just wanted to express my gratitude for everything that has taken place lately. and i really hope everything works out not just for me but for everyone who is struggling to find funds for college.

I would rather do both and not suffer the consequences... my schedule does not fit my preference because though i do what i want... i still end up like a zombified being .... my brain hardly responding. yup. my schedule.

i love you guys. i love you all so much.

i thought the rain would never come. The drought is over my blanket is taking over :D

SO we went to the NYU seminar (we being Sarah Kelsey and I) may i just say that that school and their application process is so awesome. its very fair and it gives you the sense that they really look at everything about you.

Kelsey i know you said you may not want to apply (... i think you changed your mind today... ;) but you should! that would be freaking crazy... and the experience is just what we all need.

NEW YORK TIMES SARAH
need i say more...? new york and awesome internship opportunities and study abroad programs that don't cost extra except for shopping expenses... but of course we can raise funds for your shopping nigga. WE HAVE TO APPLY GUYS.

I honestly dont think i have ever wanted anything more than this. I mean for myself and my future. this is the thing i want most and have wanted most ... I want this guys so bad and im scared i wont get it... but im going full on... ima apply as best as i can.. and i need to get that film done.. i need help guys... offer a hand?? any suggestions on what i can muster for the tisch school of arts by november 1st??? i would need to be filming for this week and have it done by the next coming weekend...

:(

should i do the feet one sarah?

i dont know i dont wanna use any gimmicks... HELP

... pockets. thats what my bought today. hah. i wonder if she got the idea that i prefer the fattening stuff to the "lean" pockets. =D just kidding i dont really mind at all but just to let everyone know. i have HOTT pockets mmmmm. golly geeeeeee i havent finished my essays for quest bridge. the odds of me getting that scholarship are slim to ... you know. .... how sad. i dont even know what to write about for it.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

PERSONAL STATEMENTS.

:(

so apparently this isnt blocked on campus sooo i can post entries while i wait an hour for school to start. i know its quite pathetic. but i get bored and i would rather not read my government book. sooooo.

this weekend was quite crazy if i do say so myself; my cousin came to visit at the same time as kelsey and sarah. btw im sorry about that. i bet it was at least a little awkward. :/ so anywho they went out last night (they meaning my cousin and her friend) to a club... came home like at 2 or something and i believe that one if not both of them were drunk.... i got the wrap for it. can you believe that?

anywho. the book lee let me read about making a journal is pretty uplifting in itself and it made me feel better. really did.

immmmm gonna go. i am sooo tired.

:D